Not Fun Anymore

I didn’t say anything vulgar in these two days and in fact, had been very concious of what others are spewing out of their mouths. I do not need to be listening *this* intently. And, sad to say, I’ve said some dumb things. Dumb, dumb, things. Adding to the list would be ‘never say anything stupid’.
I wish I don’t have to care about all these petty things but it’s these petty things that build character. And since I can’t perform academically anymore, I might as well have good character to be a functionable member of the society. You might think my perception is skewed, but I, at least, think that it works this way.

I need to be alone. I want to be alone. I want a book, a nice corner and nice music playing and be alone. Unfortunately, this is not the time to do all these. Finals is in two weeks and I wish I have something to look forward to instead of exams. Maybe a holiday, a roadtrip or PS3.

It’s not even Linkin Park anymore, it’s more like John Mayer, Maroon5 and Lifehouse.

Mellowed down or not, I don’t see any point in screaming out all the lyrics, imagining my still palpitating heart is being stabbed in somebody’s hand, blood oozing and everything else. I’m 20, I should be doing something with my life.