Not Fun Anymore

I’d rather you call me ‘babi’ than ‘friend’. But don’t overdo it unless you intended to piss me off in the first place.

Take for example, this little message:

“Babi!! How are you doing lately?”

and this,

“Friend, how are you lately?”

The second message will always seem so distant. It’s like putting an obstacle right there, there’s no proximity, therefore neither is there any sincerity.

Not that I enjoy being called ‘babi’ all the time.

But I would also ignore the messages altogether. Like, can you be any more vague? How am I lately? Hmm…… that depends on what you wanna hear, darling.

It’s just small talk, I guess, because I would actually avoid asking that question unless I’m quite sure there is an interesting answer.

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Life is not fun.

Life is not fun.

Life is not fun when there is no rush.

The rush to do the things I want to do the way I want them to be done.

I don’t want a regrettable life.