Sometimes I think.
And other times, I think too much.
I wish I could just be dumb, to have no expectations from others, have no dreams, have no wants and no obligations.
Of course, I’m blessed to be actually given a chance to study. Most probably belong to upper-middle class of the working force, a few years after graduation. Earning enough to do whatever I fancy.
Right now, I lack the determination to study. Dangerous times to be occupied by thoughts like these, actually.
I hate that I have to have a carrot dangled in front of me to get me going. Superficial or not, the promise of the trip to Japan actually kinda worked. But this time, there’s nothing at the end of the line except the same old bullshit of “graduate, with good cgpa and get into a good company”.
I want out. The will to fight is not there anymore. But I really wish I still have it.
I don’t give a damn about how much smarter than me you are anymore. Damn.
