Not Fun Anymore

You feel the pinch of recession?

Well, not in Malaysia. Not at all. Whereas the rest of the world displays gaudy signs on windows, screaming ‘The Big Sale!!’, only to garner more handbag clutching when any passerby… well, pass by. The economy is only going to get worse. It is felt everywhere else in the world. But not Malaysia, because apparently, Malaysia Boleh.

Fuck your disillusioned ‘we will avoid the technical recession’ bullshit. I’m saving my dough for the worst to come. You should too. Because the astrologers say it’s only getting worse towards the second half of the new year. Yeah, genius, who could have seen that coming? I obviously wouldn’t…. *sheesh*

Anyway, how now brown cow? I’m graduating this coming April, market is like shit and who would hire a fresh graduate when those more experienced can be employed at the same price, if not lower? If I were to go further my studies, the conversion rate is going to kill my dad and what will guarantee that I will get a job when I finish? The recession is only going to get worse in the coming two years. Indeed, my future is so bloody bleak, seeing through the sewage pipe is thousand times brighter.

I wish our currency is stronger than this. Or, just the same, it’ll be great if other currencies plunge like helicopters shot by Talibans. (muahah)

I wish I had a brighter outlook in life… I really do. But Life taught me to shut my pie hole and brace for the very worst.

I’m awake at ungodly hours, but that’s nothing new. The problem is with my growling stomach. It’s just not the right time to make any snacks or drinks, it’ll feel weird but probably, I’m just to lazy to get up and do anything. It’s stupid how I do/don’t do things sometimes. I mean, if you’re hungry, just get up and go get some food right? But nooooo… have to think so much and then end up feeling so lazy and just suffer.

Anyways, Christmas night was awesome =D especially the scenes with 3 wise men and later, the blood on the screen.

I was invited to Christmas dinner at my aunt’s place but somehow I don’t feel like going. I feel like maybe I should just go because going back to Sitiawan is such a hassle. But I don’t feel like being nice and chrismas-sy to people right now. And there are the other issues. Hell, I’d rather be at home but … it sucks, My dad won’t be free to pick me up until Thursday. So I’ll have to take a bus up North. And I HATE BUSES!! Inter-city, intra-city, Uniten Buses… all of them… I HATE!!

If you have to know, me driving back alone is cheaper and more convenient than taking a bus. Because:

1. I have to pay taxi to get to KTM station(RM 12), take 2 different trains to plaza rakyat (RM 5++), Take bus (RM 18.90). Total, RM 35.90 plus dunno what bloody junkfood I might stock up for the bus ride and the possibility of getting mugged. Aand please be reminded that I BLOODY HATE TAKING BUSES!!

2. If I took the car, gas for whole trip is only around RM 25 (maybe cheaper cos it’s like RM 1.80/liter now), plus some toll along the way depending on which road I take (at most RM 5.50).

I REALLY DO NOT UNDERSTAND WHY I CANNOT DRIVE BACK.

I drove in a fucking heavy rain the last time we went back and I have 1337 driving skills. And I arrived safely even though the visibility is only about 20m.

Omg, I really have nothing to say di and I ‘m so lazy to argue anymore. The thing is, Mr. Lee said it’ll be stupid(not exactly the word he used, but what the heck) to drive down with two cars on Sunday cos there’s a dinner here. I see a point, but nah… I STILL DON’T GET IT

Maybe I should just stay here. And rot stinking high heavens…

RAGE

Why ah? Why is it that I’m easily tired out these past weeks? Damn potong stim weih

Should I eat more? Or sleep more? Or just take some steroids? Dammit… by 2 o’clock i’ll be half dead di.

Damnnn… should I get something interesting to do? I just feel so old…. why? why?

I don’t want to feel old….

Must be a great sign

If you looked up last night’s sky

Shined a brilliant smile

Now you know how bored I was.

And yes, there was a smile. I saw it, when I was parking my car. And it’s kinda freaky.

If anything, I think we should all look up the sky every once in a while. I find it most relaxing. But don’t do that when it’s raining heavily. Then you’re just being stupid.

And another haiku to wrap things up:

Excruciating

The very life of me cries

This, that, otherwise?

(reflecting how I cannot decide on wat to do with my life. You don’t have dilemmas like this? Good for you)

FFS… I’m not emo-ing ok. My mom made me write a haiku and it caught on. =D