Finished my last paper.

After one week of hellish snot dispensing, I have finally got better. Not sniffling at all as of right now. Actually, there’s only one more paper, one project to complete and two more presentations until I’m home free. *whoopee*

But of course, I’m feigning excitement.

I don’t know what the hell I want to do. Having been prepped to do whatever that got me here up til this point, and now that the leash is untied… I don’t have any bloody idea where to go from here onwards.

I could become RA… but I could also give you 923333 reasons why I shouldn’t.

I need me some inspiration.

It’s been such a long time since I’ve been happy doing what I’m doing.

Woke up with a scratchy throat and a runny nose. It’s true I guess, not enough sleep lowers your immunity system. Two weeks of lousy sleeping pattern finally worn me down. Thank god it’s a saturday and I managed to sleep for more than 12 hours. But I woke up with a heavy head though…. ah well, nothing that a panadol can’t cure.

There’s so much work to do and I’m sitting here feeling miserable. I need a break dammit. Two weeks to Finals and projects and presentations are all backlogged. I shit you not, I might not come out of Uniten alive.

And now I’m hungry, but there’s nothing but instant noodles and it’s pouring torrential rains outside. My room banjir di somemore. I wonder if eating too much bananas is bad for you. Ah, well already downed 4 and I’m feeling fine… maybe it’s better than instant noodles afterall.

I’ve done many things in my short life here so far, some underhanded, some commendable, some outrageous but this has gotta be in my list of ‘Things that are gonna crawl back up and bite my ass’.

There were some disjointment in my data, some things that are unexplainable.

I was asked to manipulate it. Make it look better.

Hei, I’m not one to complain if this if gonna make my life easier, but don’t you think conjuring something up from nothing and putting it in your thesis is crazy stupid?

The said thesis would probably be referenced by some other people and what if they found out what I said wasn’t true? Is this how it works in the academic field? I have always been brought up to do the right thing and although sometimes I do tend to veer off-course, but those are probably not as severe as what I’m gonna do.

I know that it is commonplace to plagiarize abit here and change some input there to polish the end results, make it more presentable. But I want to know now, where is the limit? This is probably my only thesis, and can be said that it is my life’s work and will probably bring me somewhere, hopefully. Is it really acceptable, this sort of manipulation? I have a really bad feeling about this.

I am seriously rethinking my decision of whether to become a Research Assistant or not. If these two years are not going to make me grow as a better person and instead bring out the worst in me, I had better not stay here.

Maybe I should seriously look for a job.

A Brazilian archbishop says all those who helped a child rape victim secure an abortion are to be excommunicated from the Catholic Church.

The girl, aged nine, who lives in the north-eastern state of Pernambuco, became pregnant with twins.

It is alleged that she had been sexually assaulted over a number of years by her stepfather.

The excommunication applies to the child’s mother and the doctors involved in the procedure.

The pregnancy was terminated on Wednesday.

Abortion is only permitted in Brazil in cases of rape and where the mother’s life is at risk and doctors say the girl’s case met both these conditions.

Police believe that the girl at the centre of the case had been sexually abused by her step-father since she was six years old.

The fact that she was pregnant with twins was only discovered after she was taken to hospital in Pernambuco complaining of stomach pains.

Her stepfather was arrested last week, allegedly as he tried to escape to another region of the country.

He is also suspected of abusing the girl’s physically handicapped older sister who is now 14.

Intervention bid

The Catholic Church tried to intervene to prevent the abortion going ahead but the procedure was carried out on Wednesday.

Now a Church spokesman says all those involved, including the child’s mother and the doctors, are to be excommunicated.

The Archbishop of Olinda and Recife, Jose Cardoso Sobrinho, told Brazil’s TV Globo that the law of God was above any human law.

He said the excommunication would not apply to the child because of her age, but would affect all those who ensured the abortion was carried out.

However, doctors at the hospital said they had to take account of the welfare of the girl, and that she was so small that her uterus did not have the ability to contain one child let alone two.

While the action of the Church in opposing an abortion for a young rape victim is not unprecedented, it has attracted criticism from women’s rights groups in Brazil.

Heartless la these ppl. I seriously dunno what’s in their heads. Nine Years old, YOU WANT HER TO DIE AH!!!??? Dah la she has a difficult life ahead di, you want her to keep her two children that might endanger her life and more importantly she didn’t want them in the first place!! And if she gave birth to them, the painful memory and their mere presences are gonna haunt her for the rest of her life. What kind of twisted fuck would want to inflict that kind of pain on a child?

Excommunication might be the best gift after all, because after all that fiasco, nobody would want to be associated with them anymore anyway.

Abortion is a very sensitive issue indeed. But if the child has not even developed thought, i think it’s only akin to cutting off your thumb. It’s a part of you and you’ll hurt and miss it but if it’s gonna cause you more pain if you keep it, maybe removing it shouldn’t have to be such a bad thing.

I cannot stay up as late as I’d love to anymore. My right shoulder tends to get so stiff if I sit in front of the comp for more than 3 hours.

It hurts so bad, I actually resorted to using Salonpas. These little buggers make my whole room stink like how an old man would.

Sign of me getting old… omg so sleepy. I dowan to write my thesis anymore….

oh and one thing about those personality sites… like >>http://www.luckynotes.com/2006/06/personality-by-months-693.html

they sound alike for all months, they might as well be describing one person. Sien… but I like wasting time…

Btw, interesting news I found on the web:

1. Berjaya has acquired franchise for krispy kreme and expect the first outlet in early 2009. I bet you the first outlet would be in times square. Yes, old news…. >>http://www.berjaya.com/080808bernama.htm

2. A flight  to Osaka can be as cheap as less than 1500 RM(return) via kl>manila>osaka (airasia-cebu pacific). However the exchange rate is sky-high. A whooping 100 yen to 3.79RM, our money is worth nothing. Iz sad.

3. Perak is in such mess now that I’m not proud of where I come from, for now.

4. Meizu M8 is freaking expensive at 2880RMB for the 16gb model and yet it’s sold out. It looks cheaper than iphone and yet… the reception omg. Anyway, iphone is selling unlocked models in hong kong for like 3000RM online. That’s daylight robbery because that amount of money can buy you one Lumix FZ28 and a PC, which can do the same tasks at 2000 times the awesomeness. Service is only limited to Hong Kong so it sucks anyway. And iphone is updating its 3G model and there will be a cheaper model at 99USD, both available in June/July, in US. Oh, and China is getting iphone. When’s our turn!!?? Seeing the trend of outrageous pricing and oft time the phone comes with a soul-sucking rateplan, I’m not excited anymore.

I’m a compulsive snacker. I bought so much snacks that I’m amazed at the amount of junk I actually consume when I’m stressed out.

And to the fucking elephant living above my unit, “STOP JUMPING UP AND DOWN!!! SHOCKWAVES ARE BEING CREATED AS WE SPEAK HERE!!!”

omg, stresss!!

There’s this schadenfreude streak among my friends. Do you suffer from it too?