Not Fun Anymore

I’ve done many things in my short life here so far, some underhanded, some commendable, some outrageous but this has gotta be in my list of ‘Things that are gonna crawl back up and bite my ass’.

There were some disjointment in my data, some things that are unexplainable.

I was asked to manipulate it. Make it look better.

Hei, I’m not one to complain if this if gonna make my life easier, but don’t you think conjuring something up from nothing and putting it in your thesis is crazy stupid?

The said thesis would probably be referenced by some other people and what if they found out what I said wasn’t true? Is this how it works in the academic field? I have always been brought up to do the right thing and although sometimes I do tend to veer off-course, but those are probably not as severe as what I’m gonna do.

I know that it is commonplace to plagiarize abit here and change some input there to polish the end results, make it more presentable. But I want to know now, where is the limit? This is probably my only thesis, and can be said that it is my life’s work and will probably bring me somewhere, hopefully. Is it really acceptable, this sort of manipulation? I have a really bad feeling about this.

I am seriously rethinking my decision of whether to become a Research Assistant or not. If these two years are not going to make me grow as a better person and instead bring out the worst in me, I had better not stay here.

Maybe I should seriously look for a job.