Not Fun Anymore

Everytime a proposal comes up, it will sound like this:

‘Sports betting will be legalized’

And then after 2 weeks:

‘The Govt will not legalize sports betting’

and you know who untung?

Vincent Tan lor… you all waterfish

apparently the reason is… a lot of people are against it.

Define alot. Take this ‘alot’ and compare to the rest of the population who are for it. And don’t lie through your teeth that this figure is still ‘alot’.

By the way, did anybody ask you, the ppl on the street, whether you are for it or against it?

Me neither.

So hor, you can now conclude…

IT’S A SHAM

It’s called ‘seng tung kek sai’. It means make noise to the east and hit from the west.

It means we are gonna be bluffed and treated like 3 yr olds as long as najib is still in control.

… my heart decides that it’s too tired to beat anymore?

I was just sitting there watching Bones, reruns, and MTV.

And then I was aware of my heartbeat for a moment.

And then I felt tired.

If I have to consciously make a decision at that moment, to just drop everything and go for a holiday or stick it out for a few more months and THEN go for a holiday, I’d be torn.

Because my heart will tell me to just go for a holiday.

And my brain would definitely tellcommand that I finish my work first.

Did I tell you that all these discipline shit was from my dad?

I was trained Para militarily. *hah*

Fuck this shit. I’m gonna go back to uni, work my ass off for a few months and go for a well-deserved holiday.

And if there’s another sohai robber that breaks in, I might just fucking kill him because I am THAT furious.

I know I’m tough to handle, can’t take orders, stubborn.

But I realized that the day that I stop questioning, criticising and actually listen and take in bullshits, is the day I stop living.

I’m egoistic like that.

And I fear that day will come and I wouldn’t know what to do.

I just wanna finish my studies. Why am I fucking stuck here.

Tiu the fucking sohai that caused all these shit.

Detox next year sial!!!!

ok… heartfelt blogpost…

Does not want to reconcile?

U kidding right?

I didn’t ask for any apology. I want you to settle your problems.

That’s all I ask of you. And yet you called before overcoming anything.

It’ll take time for me to figure things out… because at 24,

I do not expect to be told to ‘shut up’ by a friend I’ve been trying to help.

You calling and writing a blog post about how you have apologized and got ignored clearly shows you want to know what I’m thinking.

Here’s what I think:

You should take charge of your life, do it for yourself. Not to please others, not to fear of ‘what ifs’. Only keep people worthy of your love around and never ever do anything that will disappoint them. 

But for now, just let me do my work because I’m stressed up enough as it is.

By the way:

“A real best friend may not support your actions (and would tell you off) but the person will be there no matter what.If you apologize and the person still doesn’t wanna reconcile, then i guess the friendship wasn’t meant to last.”

The only people who will always be there for you are your family. Don’t hurt them.