Not Fun Anymore

… my heart decides that it’s too tired to beat anymore?

I was just sitting there watching Bones, reruns, and MTV.

And then I was aware of my heartbeat for a moment.

And then I felt tired.

If I have to consciously make a decision at that moment, to just drop everything and go for a holiday or stick it out for a few more months and THEN go for a holiday, I’d be torn.

Because my heart will tell me to just go for a holiday.

And my brain would definitely tellcommand that I finish my work first.

Did I tell you that all these discipline shit was from my dad?

I was trained Para militarily. *hah*

Fuck this shit. I’m gonna go back to uni, work my ass off for a few months and go for a well-deserved holiday.

And if there’s another sohai robber that breaks in, I might just fucking kill him because I am THAT furious.